[4:49 AM] Ulamog, the Omnom Cthulhu: Sitting in the sun, Alexandra was writing. In her lap was a smooth board for ease and assistance as she wrote. To her side was a small, easily portable table with an inkwell, a cup of water, and a few foods.
To Her Majesty, Queen Isabella,
......
............
Perhaps it would be easier to begin with the note to Julius...
Alexandra sighed. Even indirectly, through a letter, she still could not find the words to talk to her lover nor, Olphira forbid, the queen herself.
How did it even come to this!? I'm supposed to be a knight of Dovania, a captain even! And yet here I sit, trying to find the words to confess my broken oath.
[6:55 AM] Birb - Sky: Viana was running around outside when she got the spontaneous urge to look at the sun.
"Bad idea!" She quietly cursed to herself
This made her slow down to a walk pace as she rubbed her eyes while they were closed. She opens her eyes, and once her vision becomes visible enough, she stops to see Alex right in front of her.
"Sorry, Alex! If I hadn't slowed down, I might've ran into you... Whatcha doing there?" She asked as she noticed what she doing
[7:06 AM] Ulamog, the Omnom Cthulhu: Alexandra looked up from her writing, "Hello, Viana," She nodded in greeting, "I'm writing a note, that I'm going to ask the caravan we're with to take to Dovania with them."
Struggling to, at least.
"Yourself?"
[7:13 AM] Birb - Sky: "Oh I was just running around trying to do... But then the sun got in my eyes... Ugh, maybe I should sit down and let them rest a bit more."
She sat down next to Alexandra, in the grass. It reminded her of the last time she was with her.
"Y'know, you sure know where to the pick the best spots of grass to sit."
She pats the ground, noticing it's warm cushi-ness. She blushes.
"I uh... I promise not to fall asleep this time" she says sheepishly, red in the face
[7:21 AM] Ulamog, the Omnom Cthulhu: "Don't worry yourself, child," Alexandra shook her head, "I can call for another seat if you'd like."
[7:23 AM] Birb - Sky: "uh sure! But I don't mind the grass for the time being though" she smiled, still blushing
"So uh, what exactly are you writing? Poetry?"
[7:24 AM] Ulamog, the Omnom Cthulhu: Alexandra waves a servant over for the seat, "If only it were so. I think I'd enjoy even that more than I am now."
[7:27 AM] Birb - Sky: "Oh? Well then... are they song lyrics? Or a story? I... Can't really think of what else it could be..." Viana tried to think to herself. Most writing she has encountered was some form of art
[7:28 AM] Ulamog, the Omnom Cthulhu: "I'm writing a letter to Queen Isabella, and another to a... friend," Alexandra explained.
[8:15 AM] Birb - Sky: The servant came back with the chair and she thanked them as she sat down in the chair.
" A... Friend? And the Queen? Wow... You must be pretty important to write to her... Hmm, I had never thought about writing letters to people like that, but it makes sense. A lot more efficient than just waiting for the next time to see them!" She smiled and giggled
"Maybe I should write a letter... But I don't know to who, considering Delphi is already here"
[8:39 AM] Ulamog, the Omnom Cthulhu: This girl... she forgot... At least she remembers my name.
"Do you not have anyone else to write to?" Alexandra inquired, "You could write to them. Or write a prayer. That's close to writing a letter to your god."
[9:48 AM] Birb - Sky: "Hmm, that's a good thought, but I already say my prayers, so I don't think it's necessary... Oh I know! I could write to Robby! I haven't spoke with him since I left... I wonder if he's alright..." Viana hadn't recently thought of Robby, a friend from back home. Well, she had thought about him, but not in detail. Her mind usually raced off topic.
"Oh...Hmm... Well that won't do... I feel like writing to parents is something people usually do too... Maybe I should do that? Yeah, that's a good idea, it's not like I've spoken with them before, so maybe it'd be good to"(edited)
[10:06 AM] Ulamog, the Omnom Cthulhu: "Yes, that should be fine," Alexandra nods, stopping once she fully considered Viana's statement.
Dear Olphira, that is not what I needed right now.
Alexandra sighed, turning her attention back to her writing.
[10:08 AM] Birb - Sky: "hehe, sweet! May I borrow pen and paper, Alex? I might need some help, but I'll try my best!"(edited)
[10:18 AM] Ulamog, the Omnom Cthulhu: "Of course," Alex nodded, offering a spare paper and quill, "Whenever the quill dries, come over her and dip it in the inkwell again."
[10:23 AM] Birb - Sky: "uhh, sure, thanks!"
She takes the quill in hand and begins writing. At first she made a big blob on the page, but we continued, determined to keep trying.
The page read:
[Big ink blob]
Robby,
Are you dead?
I hope not, you're cool.
I miss you and I hope we can see each other again.
Love,
Viana
The words she wrote were mostly blocky and childish. But her signature at the end was beautifully done is a lovely and elegant cursive.
"Done! I think Robby will like this." She said as she showed it to Alexandra(edited)
[10:25 AM] Ulamog, the Omnom Cthulhu: "You'll have to send it to him," Alexandra crumpled a paper, taking a new sheet.
[10:31 AM] Birb - Sky: "yeah I will!" She smiled, setting aside the letter so she could give it to the caravan to somehow give to Robby
"Hmm... How do I write a parent letter? Do you have parents, Alex? Why don't you write to them?" Viana asked innocently
[10:33 AM] Ulamog, the Omnom Cthulhu: Alexandra sighed, "I'd never needed to write to them. I'd assume the usual, like asking how they've been and such."
[11:15 AM] Birb - Sky: "I-I've never spoke to mine... From what I was told from the other guards back home, when I was a baby, they asked them to raise me and went on their way... I just..."
She paused, the quill shaking in her hands. She put the quill down and rubbed her eyes
[11:40 AM] Ulamog, the Omnom Cthulhu: "Hush. You don't need to have spoken to a specific person before to be personable with them," Alexandra insisted.
[11:41 AM] Birb - Sky: "Alex...I just dunno if they ever loved me..."
"M-maybe there was something wrong with me... I-I-I dunno... Why else would they give up their... b-baby? "
It was difficult to finish her statement, and the last word carried so much emotion. She begins to sob, despite her best efforts to contain it
[11:43 AM] Ulamog, the Omnom Cthulhu: "I don't know. Perhaps they couldn't support you, and it was between giving you away or watching you starve alongside them," Alexandra suggested.
Not exactly pretty. But better than her thinking they hated her.
[11:46 AM] Birb - Sky: "I-I supposed th-that's true..." She said through tears as she wiped her eyes. Alexandra made her feel better enough to make the tears at least be not as harsh
"But aren't families supposed to stick together? They could've just as easily asked to stay with the guard... We could've been a family..."
[11:47 AM] Ulamog, the Omnom Cthulhu: "Note my wording, Viana," Alexandra reminded, "I'm sure they would have if they'd been able to."
[11:49 AM] Birb - Sky: "It's just so hard, Alex... Would you give up your baby like that?"
She knew that Alexandra meant the best, but she was distraught. These feelings finally surfacing after not thinking about them too hard.(edited)
[12:02 PM] Ulamog, the Omnom Cthulhu: "I..." Alexandra freezes for a moment.
Relax, she doesn't know. Its just a question. Even if she did know, really, there's no point in getting defenseives about it.
"I am much more welf off than most," Alexandra concluded.
[12:06 PM] Birb - Sky: "That doesn't really answer my question..." She said as tears continued to stream down her face
"I know that I couldn't possibly leave my baby... Not ever... I-I'd be even worse of a wreck if I were ever separated from my baby... I... I just can't imagine..." She wiped away her tears, but more soon came to fill their place
[12:07 PM] Ulamog, the Omnom Cthulhu: "I am sorry. Its a rather... tender topic," Alexandra sighed.
[12:12 PM] Birb - Sky: "I... I don't know what you mean... I..."
There was only one possible thing this could mean...
"...is it a tender topic because... because... are you my mom?"
Her body was trying to choke back the tears, but they continued to stream. Even her nose began to cry.
[12:12 PM] Ulamog, the Omnom Cthulhu: Alexandra sighed, "I... No. I want to be, but I am not currently."
[12:15 PM] Birb - Sky: "...of course..." she said, hope of finding her mom disappeared in her voice
then the seldom-active gears in her head began turning
"...but then... why would you want me as a child when ... when you could just have your own?"
[12:23 PM] Ulamog, the Omnom Cthulhu: "I'm... sorry?" Alexandra turned her full attention back to Viana, "I don't understand what you mean there... Please, don't take this the wrong way but, when did I say that...?"
[12:25 PM] Birb - Sky: "...you said you weren't my mom, but that you wanted to be...I just thought you were trying to be nice...D-did you mean something else?"
[12:31 PM] Ulamog, the Omnom Cthulhu: Olphira, give me strength...
"I... I'm so sorry Viana. I... I misheard you," Alexandra's face flushed pale, "I didn't mean to get your hopes up. I thought you had asked if I was a mother myself. I... I'm so sorry. I'd assumed you were happy with Delphine and I..."
Alexandra rubbed her forehead, trying to ease the knots of stress and regret.
[1:39 PM] Birb - Sky: "N-no, it's okay, it's ... it's just sad that I never got to meet her... i-it's not like I don't have family, cos I have Delphine. I-it's just that she's more of a big sister to me than a mom, y'know? It was foolish to think you were my mom, anyhow. We don't even have the same color hair."
she giggled a little through her tears, as they just started to lighten up
"...so you want to be a mom? I-is that what you meant?"
[1:40 PM] Ulamog, the Omnom Cthulhu: Alexandra pauses to be sure she'd properly heard this time, "Yes. I would love to be a mother."
[1:44 PM] Birb - Sky: "I-I think you'd make a lovely mother, Alex... b-but... what's stopping you?"
Viana was oblivious to the obvious signs. She wasn't in the right state of mind to do so. And even if she wasn't, she still might not get it then.
[1:46 PM] Ulamog, the Omnom Cthulhu: "Well... my job comes with an oath. I have to promise no to get married nor have children, so that I don't need to worry about anyone besides the Queen."
[1:47 PM] Birb - Sky: "but you'd make such a wonderful mom... and you want to so much... that isn't fair... you deserve to be happy"
[1:48 PM] Birb - Sky: "...have you ever thought of retiring early or something?"
[1:50 PM] Ulamog, the Omnom Cthulhu: "I have been, a lot lately," Alexandra smirked, "I hope I'm able to."
She sighs, "If only there was a way to retain my position and have a family. The two things I want most in the world, and I must choose between one..."
[1:53 PM] Birb - Sky: Her tears stopped and she wiped her eyes for what she hoped would be the last for now.
"...you haven't asked the Queen how she thought? Y'never know... maybe she'd be okay with it..."
[1:55 PM] Ulamog, the Omnom Cthulhu: "That's..." Alexandra chuckled, "I suppose that's sort of what I'm writing about."
[2:10 PM] Birb - Sky: "Well, sorry, don't let me get in the way" she said with a smile
She wrote down her thoughts into the letter. Short and sweet:
"Dear Mom and Dad,
[ink blob]
I hope to see you someday. But for now, thank you for born-ing me. I hope to be a family one day, but for now, I think I manage with my own group that's like a family to me already.
Love,
your purple-haired archer daughter,
Viana
She set the paper down and jumped to Alexandra and hugged her tight.
"No matter what she says, do it anyway... you deserve it..." she said, muffled into Alexandra's shoulder.
Tears began forming again but she wiped them off. She let go of her and spoke a few simple words before running away out of newfound glee.
"Thanks, Alex."(edited)
[2:13 PM] Ulamog, the Omnom Cthulhu: Alexandra stared down at her once again blank page, sighing.
I wish it was that simple, little one.
I really do.
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